were tears upon my leathers,
Tears upon her face
Tears of anger and denial
Of shame and loss and disgrace
The lie in which I had caught her
She knew would cost her dear
She knew what I now had to do
The words even I could not bear to hear.
collar, worn around her neck
She wore with joy so well
She knew her neck would soon be bare
By my eyes alone, could she tell.
begging and the pleading
Which I had heard and believed before
Were answered with but my silence
As I gestured towards the door.
loved her with a passion that
Yet defies my ability to say
This woman who knelt in tears before me
As I took her collar...and turned away.
of all the laws of the D/s world
Be they carved in steel or written in dust
The one above all that is most enshrined
Is but a simple word...called trust.
without trust there can be naught else
Love, honor, respect...they have no sway
And as I felt my heart near break in half
I took her collar...and walked away
I sat upon a hill side
Where once before we used to play
And looked into the starry sky
And thought back upon the day
as I sat there in the moonlight
Thinking how like diamonds they do shine
These tears upon my leathers...
These tears...both hers...and mine
© May 2, 1999
Reproduced with permission