Why
A Masochist 1
Author: Debora © 1999 |
In thinking about masochism
I have wondered why I enjoy the sensation of pain. For me, it makes me
feel alive. Our bodies function so smoothly that vital things (such as
breathing) are only noticed when they're *not* functioning, or functioning
badly. Pain is a sort of checking if everything is still there, and functioning
properly. Pain is what the doctors apply to babies to welcome them to
this world. It is a good sensation to actually feel your heart beating,
and that is what pain, fear, excitement, etc. cause.
There are times in which I do and do not enjoy pain. I only enjoy pain when *I* have the desire to feel alive. That's why pain from surgery, for example, is not a good one. And note that, at times, pain is not even necessary. Just the thrill of holding a sharp knife and moving the eyes from knife to flesh may be good enough for that feeling. I consider myself a sadomasochist, and many believe that the sadism in me is higher. But that is just because it takes me longer to feel alive when I'm inflicting pain, than when I'm receiving it. Many have asked if one's need for pain play increases,
I never paid attention to that, but I think that it does. At least,
it's logical to think that it does. A masochist is not neccessarily a submissive and vice
versa. In fact, I could easily picture a slave beating her/his masochist
master/mistress. If pain is something that brings pleasure for the Dom(me),
the slave should be able to give it. That doesn't mean, either, that
the slave must be a sadist too, since
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